Day 13: Write it huge

I have a weekly call with the women in my family who live 400 miles from here. The calls can get challenging as our beliefs and outlooks are different. The choices I’ve made and make don’t always seem understood or supported. It’s a tough place to be—breathing in gratitude to have a bloodline and valuing connection with my own, and yet be left feeling so alone, wrong, and estranged.

Enter acceptance and breathwork. After this meditation with Adriene Mishler, I pull two cards and smile through tears:

“Be gentle with yourself, monkey.”

The interpretation from Neel van Lierop: Lightheartedness and humor help in making things lighter; they literally take the load off things. In the Mayan calendar, the energy of the monkey represents the uninhibited child that plays. Connect with your inner child today; do not let anyone’s judgments hold you back and be free from outside validation. Live in the moment, playfulness will follow naturally.